With a tear in my eye and a lump in my throat...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.


Yup yup todays blog is song lyrics. Fairly popular ones at that. But I only heard, nah I only LISTENED to this song for the first time last night. I had heard it plenty of times before, when walking around HMV, or on the radio etc. But when it I had my iPod on random last night and this came on I actually stopped and listened to it for once, after all I could relate to the song title at the very least.

Now at first this blog was supposed to be about either this song, or this one, (Be sure to have a pop-up blocker if you click either of those links, if you don't have one yet theres a great one included in Google Toolbar.) and both of those songs are relevant to what I'm feeling lately, but both of them want to make me sing out it, something which is almost contradictory to what I SHOULD be doing. But 'Goodbye My Lover' on the other hand makes me what to cry about it, it makes me remember the past, and I dunno but that just feels right.

Most of the lines in this song have a certain resonance in my heart, seriously ask me about any of them and theres most likely a story to tell, however I just cannot agre with the last last of this song, certain not as much as the last ones in this one. I've never felt hollow, I may have felt worthless, but I've always felt SOMETHING. Maybe I'm just too realistically optimistic, if that is indeed a phrase? I know it would never work, me being realistic, however that doesn't stop me wishing for it, me being optimistic.

Anywho enough of the emoness - in the context of emotional rantings.

Today I paid for my lack of work yesturday and had to work almost solidly for 5 hours, luckily it was a Sunday then!

Unfortunatly I have yet to make any headway on my essay for Uni, that will HAVE to be started tomorrow. I'm at Uni anyway so I shall have to get some books out of the library, and despite my reluctance to make a fool out of myself try and figure out how to use the photocopier to make use of some of the Univercities KeyText books. However if anyone knows ANYTHING about the crusades in the 11th and 12th centuries any hellp will be greatly appreciated as you'll know a LOT more than me!

Alas my efforts to get my essay done may be hampered by the release of Casino Royale on DVD, and Enter Shikaris new album.

So heres looking forward to watching kewl movies, listening to kewl music and generally being distracted from the work that I should be doing!

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