Just like you imagined

Well the past few days have been fairly samey,
Just the usual, work and Uni.
Did get my last essay this year done yesturday though!
In my usual fashion I did it the morning it was due,
Though it only started getting good towards the end.
To be honest it was a really interesting essay, and given more research I could have done a lot better... but lets just say I wasn't in an 'essay mood' that day.

Oh if you're wondering about the short sentances ask Chuck Palahniuk,
I'm currently reading his book 'Diary,' it may end up being the first book I haven't discarded half way through in literally months.
Now I know what you're thinking... emo,
Especially given I found the book through the band Panic! At the Disco:
"Just for the record the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of
A) Indifference or
B) Disinterest in what the critics say"
But everyone has their different definitions of emo,
Everyone has their different definitions of everything,
Hell even I got called Charv today!

I'm not going to let that bother me, not when I saw the majesty that is 300 last night.
It certainly was... majestic,
But having read the Graphic Novel it was based on I can't help but feel a little bit unsettled,
Everyones raving about it following the Comic almost to the letter,
But believe me there have ben changes,
Was it just me or did the heroic emphasis move away from Leonidas and somehow onto Dilios, the messenger?
And was the moral of the story to fight for Love?
I'm fairly certain the morals I gained from the original were to fight for Honour and Glory,
But maybe thats just me being cynical aobut the whole thing,
It was still a damn fine movie,
A movie any self-respecting guy has to like,
Or face expulsion from their very gender.

Anywho tomorrow is FINALLY payday!
So I'll most likely be playing Crackdown tomorrow,
Or finding space in my already overcrowded room for ever more 'dolls' as Gav likes to call them.

Impulse
Pretty Girl is suffering

Long time no blog

Well sorry for the last of updates, but I think I've come to the conclusion that some things are better kept as memories, fate will decide whether or not I'll remember them for life.

But basically:

• Streets of Rage multiplayer still Rocks!
• Staying up late doesn't effect me as much as it did
• Getting drunk CAN make things better... At least for a lil bit
• Random girls = Scary as hell!
• Bus + Train + Bus = Loooong travel time
• Cherry coke and Flamin' hot monster munch is a dangerous addiction!

Anywho, I was at work today, didn't get much work done though as usual. I did however get a chance to see how the PS3 launch went. In short not well. Pretty much every store I went in had lots of people oogling the HDTV's Sony had provided to show off the PS3's visuals, AND a lot of the consoles left. Grainger Games, a fairly small games shop when contrasted with most, still had 20 of the consoles left! This story about the launch will always humour me. I've never really been a Microsoft fanboy, but damn that is some nerve!

I've been put off from buying the PS3 because of the price lately. Why pay £500 for the console and one game, when I can get any amount of games for the Wii and 360 for that amount. It just isn't justified for me. However knowing my perchant for following my impulses I'll probably end up buying one. If I've got the money I'll buy ANYTHING sometimes.

It was the season finale of Skins last night, and I'm still not sure what I think about it. The ending seems to be an obvious ploy to get people to watch the next series after this one became so popular, but really who honestly cares about whether Tony lives or dies? A better cliff hanger would have been to leave Sid and Cassie's love for each other untold, they have after all become the emotional centre of the show. And with respect to the ending I never saw the ending to Shameless so it was all new to me, and I liked it. The song choice was good, and I always like to see tv and music being integrated more than in music videos.

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She wants revenge

Grrr

Well my last post didn't work, to put your mind at rest I got my essay handed in 4minutes before the deadline, but you know how long my posts are and right now I need to get some sleep for my work experience tomorrow so I don't have time to write it out again.



I'll try and condense the past few days into one post tomorrow however untill then I leave you with this:

Sids image courtesy of Dosseh's Myspace

Strange coincidence? Or seperated at birth? Answers on a postcard!


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Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark meets Motorhead

Or at least thats how my father described Enter Shikari.



I decided to put their musical musings on in the car on the way home from buying Casino Royale and their album.

Now I know he likes O.M.D and some Motorhead, however the two mixed I think hes going to need some convincing about.

Me on the other hand, I was sold when I downloaded their single from iTunes, so far its reached 39 plays, though thats probably going to stop going up as I listen to the album instead.

So far my favorite song has to be 'Today won't go down in history' - For some reason I always like the slower songs, they're just a change of pace I suppose, especially when you're used to the faster harder songs some bands produce. And this song just reminds me that not every day has to monumental, but it still has to be lived. Not to meantion the line 'I never meant for this,' which I would love to sing with all my heart, if only I could sing.

If you haven't already got a copy of Take to the Skies I whole-heartedly encourage you to buy it, after all its only £6.94 from Tesco, and you'll get Casino Royale for £9.64 if you buy them at the same time!


I'm onto my second watching of Casino Royale as I write this, no doubt thats number WILL grow as the night goes on. I've yet to start my actual essay, but hey I've got a grand total of about 10 hours left, should be easy right? Well if I don't sleep, I don't plan on doing so anyway, I'm not in a sleeping mood tonight, too many trips down memory lane me thinks. Plus if anything I need to prove to MYSELF that I can get this essay done and pass, I need to know that a man can change his stars, no matter what has happened in the past.


Well I have refreshments for the night ahead, Casino Royale is on in the background, iTunes is on shuffle, lets just hope I can put 2,000 words into a coherent narrative before noon tomorrow! Unless I'm afraid to admit I will be dangerously close to failing my 2nd year at University. And everything seemed to be going so well.


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Labyrinth

What motivated the crusaders between 1095 and 1204?

Thats a serious question btw!
Just looked at my essay title and I'm going to be cautiously optimistic about the outcome.
Thankfully the one, count them ONE, lecture I went to for this module was pretty much centered around this concept so at least I have notes on the topic. Even if they were convoluted by my tiredness during the lecture, it did start at 9am, and my boredom at the monotonous lecturer.
However my optimism comes from the books I borrowed from the Uni library after my lecture this morning, somehow hopefully I'm hoping the information contained within them somehow seeps into my brain because unfortunatly the Crusades seems to have attracted historians with a penchant for VERY long words and elaborate sentances.

Anywho, my lecture this morning was actually interesting, it was all about the ways people in the Early-modern period say themselves, in respect to religion and nationalism. It really made me want to go to the seminar, which starts in 5 minutes, however I've got that aforementioned essay to do. Hopefully I'll be able to attend the alternative seminar later in the week, as its all about the proposed relationship between the rise of Protestantism and Capitalism.

In other news I have yet to acquisition my copy of Casino Royale, instead I snookered my father into giving me a lift to ASDA later tonight to obtain it. Hopefully this shall give me enough time to write at least SOME of my essay, before I become distracted by the movie, which will require my full and un-divided attention. See now why can't I be THAT enthusiastic about my essays!

For some reason ever since I placed my myspace address on here my friend request have mainly been comprised of people like this. Now I really don't care if you have a pretty picture if you don't message/comment me first and prove you have at least a shred of personality I'm going to go ahead and presume that the add was sent by a bot. However this has not dissuaded me from having my myspace on here, if by some chance someone finds this blog and likes my random rantings thats probably going to be the best place to get in contact, and oh did I meantion I'm also a comment whore?

I also created a DeviantART last night, its pretty much just got the four comics I created for RaNdOm PiCtUrES a while back on it. However I'm convinced more art shall be added to it in the near future, just as soon as I find the motivation to download Photoshop, hell anything will be more professional then MSPaint right now! Though you've got to love the pixel art when you zoom right in on it! Yeah I'm a geek... and 80s style pixel art is pretty much the extent of my artistic abilities so far.

Oh yeah it also started snowing today, its either a late or a VERY early winter! I guess thats what global-warming does to the world!


Ok so maybe the snow wasn't quite THAT bad, but hey I wish it was! I love snow, I just wish it wasn't so damn cold! Granted it does give me a chance to wear my hood without feeling like a hoodlum, however the limitations of fingerless gloves become truly apparent during a snowball fight.

I also added a list of my weeks most listened to artist at the side of here, courtesy of last.fm, unfortunatly this list doesn't include the songs I listen to on my iPod would be interesting to see if that list would change considering my fondness of making On-the-go playlists, hmmm...

However I shall have to get back to my essay, which will most likely take long into the night, or possibly the morning depending on how active my brain is feeling.

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Hopelessly hopeful

With a tear in my eye and a lump in my throat...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.


Yup yup todays blog is song lyrics. Fairly popular ones at that. But I only heard, nah I only LISTENED to this song for the first time last night. I had heard it plenty of times before, when walking around HMV, or on the radio etc. But when it I had my iPod on random last night and this came on I actually stopped and listened to it for once, after all I could relate to the song title at the very least.

Now at first this blog was supposed to be about either this song, or this one, (Be sure to have a pop-up blocker if you click either of those links, if you don't have one yet theres a great one included in Google Toolbar.) and both of those songs are relevant to what I'm feeling lately, but both of them want to make me sing out it, something which is almost contradictory to what I SHOULD be doing. But 'Goodbye My Lover' on the other hand makes me what to cry about it, it makes me remember the past, and I dunno but that just feels right.

Most of the lines in this song have a certain resonance in my heart, seriously ask me about any of them and theres most likely a story to tell, however I just cannot agre with the last last of this song, certain not as much as the last ones in this one. I've never felt hollow, I may have felt worthless, but I've always felt SOMETHING. Maybe I'm just too realistically optimistic, if that is indeed a phrase? I know it would never work, me being realistic, however that doesn't stop me wishing for it, me being optimistic.

Anywho enough of the emoness - in the context of emotional rantings.

Today I paid for my lack of work yesturday and had to work almost solidly for 5 hours, luckily it was a Sunday then!

Unfortunatly I have yet to make any headway on my essay for Uni, that will HAVE to be started tomorrow. I'm at Uni anyway so I shall have to get some books out of the library, and despite my reluctance to make a fool out of myself try and figure out how to use the photocopier to make use of some of the Univercities KeyText books. However if anyone knows ANYTHING about the crusades in the 11th and 12th centuries any hellp will be greatly appreciated as you'll know a LOT more than me!

Alas my efforts to get my essay done may be hampered by the release of Casino Royale on DVD, and Enter Shikaris new album.

So heres looking forward to watching kewl movies, listening to kewl music and generally being distracted from the work that I should be doing!

Impulse

Even heroes aren't perfect

It's a wonder he isn't a villian

He's got every excuse. Born to poverty. A broken family. A childhood spent in a squalid slum. Hounded and taunted and beaten by schoolyard bullies. To top it all off he gets struck in the eyes by toxic waste and blinded for life.

Blinded, bullied, impoverished. Surrounded by calamity.

Role models? His mother, and enigma. Long gone by the time he could walk. His father, a well-meaning loser who paid for his greatest moment of courage when a bullet splattered his brains across a grimsy alleywall. His teacher, a gruff, foul-mouthed warrior who showed him the beauty in his dark world, then dismissed him as a wretched failure.

His love life? Nothing short of disastrous.

He's got all the makings of a villian. He's a natural born rascal, a mischeif-maker, a scrapper. He's a liar, who wears a mask to betray the solemn oath he made to his father a thousand times, he's a dangerous adept, gifted with a nearly superhuman talent for violence. He's a loner, a sinner, a lawyer who breaks the law.

And then there's that wicked temper of his.

He's got every excuse in the world, and within him are the makings.

But Matt Murdock is no villian, and no victim. There's something strong inside him, passed form unknown mother and doomed father to son. Something tested by tragedy. Tempered by conscience. Honed by discipline. Something that holds back the bloodthirsty beast within and forces it to serve the cause of justice.

Most of the time, anyway.

Of course his quest is a tortured one, fraught with failure and guilt and pain. It has to be that way. Nothing ever comes easy for Matt Murdock. But every ordeal is another step in his crooked path from naughty little street kid to improbable champion.

A tortured quest. One that leaves him far from perfect.

He may never join the holy that his teacher hinted at.

But he will do the best he can, this hero.

He'll fight the bullies till the day he dies.


Frank Miller
Los Angeles 1993

Just to continue the 'superhero' theme that this blog seems to have adopted I present to you the preface to... well actually I'll leave that up to you to find out, but needless to say it inspired me. I can't really tell how, but its just like anyone can be a Hero, no matter what their past is, no matter what their disability, just as long as they have the spirit to make it work and not let the bullies win.

Now I'm not saying that I've got that amount of spirit, but I am saying I'm getting more lately. I AM going to try and be a stronger person, I'm just afraid that I'm mucked things up beyond repair this time. It may be fun to 'live in the moment' but eventually that 'moment' WILL come to an end and you have to face the consequences of all the actions you thought were worth it at the time. You live, you learn, I guess. Lets just hope I've learnt my lesson and get my essays for Uni started sometime soon then! Nothing should get in the way of my future... just as soon as I figure out what I want my future to be, or at least the parts of it I control.

I'm not going to let the bullies win.


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Steals from the rich and gives to the poor...

Well everyone else seemed to have succumb to the blogging monster, so I thought it was only fitting that I relinquished my battle against it and create one of my own. Welcome to my Impulses:


Today was certainly a random day. The boss wasn't in work, and I knew this in advance, so I knew fine well there wasn't going to be much work getting done. In my MANY random trips around the Metrocentre (my main retreat when I get bored at work) I evntually ran out of shops to visit, and still needing change to pay for the lottery pool at work I decided to go to Toys 'R Us. Just went to the usual spots, Games, Marvel, Star Wars, but it was in the Batman section where I found this:

Image courtesy of http://www.legionsofgotham.org/

Hehe, for some reason I've been wanting a Robin figure to put along side my many Batman ones lately, and somehow I managed to stumble across one! I didn't even think these figures were out in this country yet, or at least if they were Toys 'R Us certainly weren't going to get any!

The same thing happened last week when I was talking to my dad about the new Army of Darkness vs Marvel Zombies comic. I hadn't visited Forbidden Planet in a while so I thought I'd missed my chance to get it without having to resort to comix-shop or ebay, but as I examined the many shelves of comics there I actually managed to come across a few copies of issue #1. Needless to say it was bought ASAP and added to my collection of Marvel Zombies comics at home. Oh yeah I have EVERY cover of the original series... now to get to work on the Ultimate Fantastic Four variants and such, THAT may not be so easy.

Hopefully tomorrow shall be just as random! Because of my lack of work today I have to go back into that paid prison tomorrow, and actually get some done... Which isn't really as hard as I make it sound, but it is damn boring! However after work I will have to go into the Uni library in order to get some books out, I've missed a LOT of lectures this semester due to... personal problems, so I need to play catch up if I'm to gain any sort of respectable grades in my essays that are due next week. Yup they're due next week and I'm only just starting to think about them now, what can I say I procrastinate and don't often have Impulses that require a large amount of work, unless it makes someone else happy of course.

Your friendly neighbourhood Impulse.

P.S Am I the only one thinking that the Punisher becoming the new Captain America would be a good idea, at least from a political point of view??? Hopefully the pictures on that page load for you, I think they've been taking a lot of traffic lately, what with Captain Americas death and all, but if they don't I've uploaded them here and here.